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| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.23 - 12:03AM | 13: Serendipity | Signed |
| Well, lol, obviously you went on to write a couple more chapters and didn't end it here. I'm glad, although yes, it would have been fine to end at this chapter also. Um, as for Severus's father? Well, what he did in this chapter doesn't surprise me. I thought that in the last chapter that's what he did until I was made to realize he only got clippings of her hair for a Polyjuice Potion. So, while I'm still a bit disgusted, I'm not shocked or surprised. The man went mad, and that isn't surprising either. Author's Response: yeah, his dad was a bit sick. i think he just went mad. I imagine grief does that to some. Yuck at what he did. I have no idea what made me put that in there. lol.. i think that was about the time i'd read about some guy that really did that with some woman after she died. i was like oh man... horrible!! But then said, hmmm... Snape's dad. lol | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 04:17PM | 11: Quiet Confession | Signed |
| Quote: "Southern’s Notes: You will likely notice that Harry didn’t come for a visit. I decided to change some things around. I needed for Severus and Hermione to become closer here without interruptions from outsiders. The things he will witness are going to truly confuse and bother him." End Quote. I am glad he didn't come to visit. This isn't a Harry/whoever story. This is a Snape/Hermione story. Thank you southern_witch_69 for answering my reviews. Much appreciated. I'm glad you're glad that someone (me) caught the subtle (and yet, not so subtle) ways in which Snape has been trying to stop the abuse. And your grandmother is right. The cycle of abuse lessens through each generation which is why it is basically inevitable that eventually the abuse cycle stops. There is usually one child that recognizes earlier in their life where previous generations failed that it is in fact abuse and that child determines to never allow the next generation to fall prey to what the earlier generations endured. And you are correct that it sucks that you couldn't have the kind of relationship with your mom that your son has, and yet, by what little you've said from the talks you had with your grandmother, I'm guessing that your relationship with her is/was better than the relationship she had with your mother. I feel the same way about my father. He's a schmuck that divorced my mother (and in essence divorced me as well). When I was 18 or so, I had a conversation with my dad and he had the nerve to tell me how proud he was that he'd always been there for me. I was flabbergasted! He had NEVER been there for me outside of financially and I'm willing to bet a million dollars that it was merely to avoid having to go to court because the minute I turned 18, child support stopped and he made no further effort to support me financially. He had never supported me emotionally. Meanwhile, when I turned 15, he adopted a son and was apparently the loving doting father. Later he adopted another son (and although my mother ferverantly denies it, these acts convinced me that he never wanted a daughter. If it's true that he didn't care whether or not he had a daughter or son, then that tells me that he just never wanted me. Either way, he was a schmuck when it came to interacting with me or raising me) and at that point I had my own apartment. He would send me letters going on and on about how smart the boys were and how they're playing this or that sport, and how well they do in school, etc. It just rubbed it in my face further how he felt about me because he NEVER bragged about me or the things I did growing up. It really hurt. I've become a very angry and bitter person and I've only had two long term realtionships, both of which were bad because while both of them apparently loved me, I couldn't love them back. I was of the mindset that I'd better hurt them so that they can't hurt me like my father did. I'm now 30, about to turn 31. I haven't had a relationship since I was 21. It seems a lifetime ago now. The older I get, the more convinced I am that I'll never be able to find love. One is because I'm not sure I can ever really trust men, and the other is because I'm almost positve that my heart died a long, long time ago. I'm not looking for sympathy here, I'm just stating what I believe to be fact. I was never physically abused, but I consider what my father did to be emotional abuse and it has affected me profoundly to the point that I am now either incapable of love, or afraid of it. I don't know for sure which it is. I also think I have chosen to avoid relationships that are likely to become serious because I don't want to subject anyone to what I went through. You are right southern_witch_69, our parent's and grandparent's child-rearing patterns affect us on the subconscious levels much more profoundly then we give them credit for. I think that's why our society today sucks as much as it does now. People don't know how to be loving or caring anymore. They've decided that schools should raise the children rather than the parents, and because of that, the children grow up to not respect anything including themselves. We have become a very selfish and cruel society (I'm mainly speaking of Americans as this is the country I am from). I am horrified by what I see us progressing towards. If you can even call it progress. Author's Response: I definitely see your point. I know that my mom used to babysit a daughter of one of their friends for a while when I was just into college. She used to go on about how great the girl was, so obedient, etc. I was so jealous about that. It really bothered me. My grandmother and I were very close. She is the one that would take me in when my mom and I would get into a row. She changed over the years, just as my mom has. Well, my mom still has her "odd" days, but she's far more mellow now than she ever was. I'm glad that we can get along now though. I hope your father realizes the error in his ways one day and at least owns up to his mistakes. It seems like tv, computers, and other things are influencing the kids today. I'm guilty of allowing this as well. My son has his video games and such. When I was his age, I was outside playing. We're starting to even out his time (hubby and I). Feel that would be for the best. Thank you so much for reading and for all the comments. Cheers SW | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 07:27AM | 10: Acceptance | Signed |
| THANK YOU for proving me right! I said that it was a cycle of abuse, and that is exactly what this was. And yes, I say WAS. It is no longer a cycle of abuse. Snape is trying to end that cycle of abuse and he is changing, even if it is subconsciously!!!! Eventually he will fully come around and realize that he is not weak and that love is not weak. They will become a strong and loving and caring family. Again, it may never be shown publicly, but again, does that really matter so long as THEY know the truth? Author's Response: You were right. :-) It's always good when someone completely gets your story. I think his parents have taught him more in death than when they were alive. I don't know if you've gotten to that bit yet, but it's coming. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Cheers | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 06:49AM | 9: Transition | Signed |
| Breastlady, I said this in the last chapter, and I'll say it again. I firmly believe that Snape is trying to STOP the abuse. He doesn't want to become like his father. I'm really and truly sorry that you are unable to see this. I also firmly believe that Hermione sees something good in Snape and is trying to help him make his positive side surface in order to help him become the man he wants to be. Will he ever be the doting and outwardly loving man she wants? No, probably not. But he probably will strive to make her as happy as he is able to and make sure that he is more involved positively in his child's life than his father was in his. Snape in any universe is an extremely private man. He will probably only show extreme bouts of love and positive emotions towards his family behind closed doors. Frankly, I don't see anything wrong with this. It's like the old addage, "never judge a book by it's cover". What does it really matter that in public he isn't the gushing epitomy of love and devotion? That isn't him. It never will be. But as long as his family knows the truth and knows and accepts that he does love them and will protect and care for them, why should it matter that no one else sees this? Author's Response: He'll always have that serious/stern outward appearance to the public, but in his own home, he can/will definitely strive to be a good husband/father. This is once he can deal with his past and make decisions on the future. | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 06:09AM | 8: Unanimity | Signed |
| Ok. Breastlady and southern_witch_69. I have read your review and response. I have something to say. Breastlady, I'm very sorry to hear about how you had to grow up. That was a terrible thing to have to endure. I'm glad that you and your mother found a way out though. That is good. I understand what you and southen_witch_69 are saying about Snape. The thing is, as I've noticed and learned repeatedly throughout my Criminal Justice classes is that there is almost always a pattern of abuse. And southern_witch_69, you've been showing that throughout this story. Snape's father obviously abused him and his mother. He probably was abused as a kid. I've learned in my classes that family abuse is usually a repeating pattern. The child is abused, grows up, doesn't know better because he/she wasn't raised with love, but a fist, and in turn raises his/her child with a pattern of abuse, etc. Eventually, a child emerges that chooses to try to stop this pattern of abuse. I believe that in this case, while Snape is being an insufferable bastard most of the time, he is trying to stop the abuse. He hasn't hit Hermione. Yes, he came close, but he did refrain from hitting her. He vowed to never abuse his child as he himself was abused. I believe that he does love Hermione, and eventually will love his child. He is just not at a point right now where he realizes that enough to try and make a conscious effort to love them. He's beginning to realize that about Hermione, but I don't think it will occur to him about the child/children (I believe she's havning twins. Assuming of course, that they aren't miscarried after her fall down the stairs) until after it/they are born and he is faced with their permanent existence. I also think that Hermione is not far-fetched in believing in this case that eventually love will prevail in some manner through time and that is why she agreed to marry him. I firmly believe that Snape is trying to break the cycle of abuse in his family. The voice in his head that constantly puts him down and feeds his insecurities is already becoming less as time goes on because he is becoming more secure about himself and his life and relationship as he has slowly told the voice to basically "fuck off". I do empathize with where you are coming from breastlady (I can't say I understand because I have never experienced abuse outside of emotional, but I can empathize), but I think your anger and frustration is blinding you to the fact that Snape is trying to break that abuse cycle. I think with time he will be successful. Author's Response: I can't convey exactly how happy I am that someone caught this. I know full well about breaking the pattern of abuse. Granted my mom never beat me horribly, but she was very rough. In turn, I became really rough as a person. It's truly something how parental activities influence a person. Over the past ten years, I've been trying to better myself and break away from my more harsh nature, and it's working. I have a son that is nearly seven, and I am proud to say that he's well behaved (most of the time, lol) , and there is no hitting or mental abuse here. I remember being about 12 and telling my mom that she was a bad person and cruel. She said that her mother was even worse. It wasn't until I was older, and had my own opinions, that she changed towards me and was at times violent. I remember one of my main concerns about being pregnant was that I didn't want to be like her--cruel to my kid. My grandmother, her mom, told me that one has to break away from the cycle of abuse. Her mum was rough with her; in turn, she did much of the same with my mom, and then, my mom turned around and raised me roughly. According to each, the amount of abuse, both physical / mental, lessened with each generation. That's good. Where I will not ever harm my child, I do tend to feel a bit rowdy at times. It's never towards him though. The odd thing? I see my mother with him, and things are completely different. She never yells, she never hits (I'd likely burn her house down if she did.) or anything like that. She says she's calmed in her older age and sees the errors of her ways. They have a great relationship. I only wish that we could have been that way. We are closer now, but for most of my "teen" years, I had it really rough. good grief... what a ramble. Anyway, Snape is definitely going to try his best to not be the man that his dad was. We'll see more of that soon. Cheers and thanks for reading. | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 05:52AM | 8: Unanimity | Signed |
| Well, I haven't moved on to chapter 9 yet, but I just know she is, er, well, probably WAS pregnant with twins. If she doesn't lose them from her tumble down the stairs. Brilliant as always, aren't you Severus? Maybe now he won't let his temper get the best of him? Although, it may just be a bit too late for that... Author's Response: Yeah, that whole trip down the stairs will truly get to him and bring back funky memories. He'll "behave" more now. :) | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 04:54AM | 7: Taking Action! | Signed |
| It's nice to see the real Hermione back! Too bad it took her getting pregnant to make it happen! And THIS is closer to the sneaky, snarky, Severus Snape I'm used to! About bloody time! Author's Response: Yeah, love makes people do odd things, but sometimes things go a bit too far. She needed to come back. :) | |||
| SataiDelenn | 2005.08.22 - 03:08AM | 6: Counterblow! | Signed |
| Damn insufferable BASTARD! Once again I am proved right that it is better to be alone than with a jackass man that is incapable of being sensitive!!!!!!!!!! Author's Response: Most definitely. He's got a few tricks up his sleeves though. | |||
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